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well I know that I hardly ever write anything, and there is really no excuse other than the fact that I am lazy. I am about to go to bed soon, so I'll give a quite update. -going to Milwaukee next saturday to meet a girl and check out an apartment. Hopefully everything there works out because it cheap and near campus, and just what I need pretty much. I got kind of upset the other night when one apartment that I thought was a sure thing, fell thruogh and I was convinced that I would never find anything, but the next day I called this girl, Kara, and she said I was the first to answer the ad and I shoudl come up ASAP so we can get to know each other. so here i go! -on a related note, I am hoping to see Nate while in Milwaukee. He's going home that day for a thanksgiving dinner type deal, so he wants us to stop by on our way home and we can see eacdh other for a while. I am hoping my mom will be cool with that. Nate's trying to get us a hotel room for free since he knows a person who owns a hotel chain, so that would be awesome. -got a call back from FYE, the music store in the mall, abotu an application that I turned in a few days ago, so I am going in on Thursday for an interview. I hope I can get that job and start working right away so I can make some money. That would be extremely helpful. -my dad is working on getting a job, finally. he went the last two night to work a 3rd shift at Power Train, the GM factory. So if he gets that job, it pays pretty well and atleast we will have 2 incomes coming in, so that would be great. It's a 3rd shift job, which kinda sucks, but you gotta do what you gotta do, right? So thats about all that has been going on here. the rest of my life pretty much consists of eating, sleeping, watching tv, and talking to nate. haha. fun huh?
Have you ever put your headphones on with the intention of listening to some music, only to realize about a half hour later that you havent listened to anything, but ate still sitting there stupidly with your headphones on? Well, I do it all the time. In fact, i just did/am doing it right now. I guess that I just get so wrapped up in other things that I forget that I wanted to play some music or something, I don't know. I just think its kind of weird. The last few days, I have been very productive. It feels good to not sit on my ass all day and watch TV. Thursday my sister and I went to the library and I got a bunch of books that I've been meaning to read: To Kill a Mockingbird, Pride and Prejudice, Crime and Punishment, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, and On the Road. So I think I've got my work cut out for me. That should keep me occupied for the next few weeks atleast. Other than that, I went shopping at my favorite record store, Boogie Records. Think Empire Records only on a smaller scale. Anyways, I bought the new Something Corporate cd and the new one by Lucky Boys Confusion there for less than 20 bucks total, so I was pretty stoked. Both cds are equally impressive, although I must say I liked the previous one from each better. I think that happens alot. When you like a band, you tend to be partial to the first thing you heard by them. When I first got into NFG, I had their second cd and then after I got into them, I bought the first one, but didn't like it as much. But who knows, maybe it's just me. I am getting increasingly frustrated with this whole transferring schools thing. I swear, nothing can ever just go smoothly. I sent the fax in to Wright State over 2 weeks ago requesting that my transcript get sent to UWM, and I check the website where you can see the status of your application and it says they still haven't recieved it. grrr! So on Monday I am going to call both schools. Wright State to make sure they mailed the fucking thing, and UWM to see if they did get it, but haven't put it up there yet. I want to get this fuckin' show on the road!! I WILL be starting school come the end of January. I don't care what it takes. I miss my Nathan
Wed, Oct. 22nd, 2003, 01:25 am
life is good
Well, it's been a while, I know. Nate was here, as you may or may not know, and I was...a little preoccupied ;) haha. So let me tell you about the past week, or what I can remember about it. On wednesday I woke up nice and early, and my dad and I set out to go pick up Nate in chicago. We got there at like 1 and waited around until he got there like a half hour later. We ate some lunch and then made our way back here. We both pretty much slept the whole way here. Nothing too exciting really happened. We hung out around the house and went to bed early. He slept in my room, and I slept in my sister's bed. My parents wouldnt go for the whole sleeping together thing. It's really frustrating too to know that he is asleep in the next room and I could be laying next to him, but I cant. But anyways, it was better than having him be 7 hours away like he normally is. Thursday Nate and I cooked dinner for my family and we stayed here and watched baseball. Friday we went to some gay haunted house and out to eat with my brother and sister, but it was a good time. we had fun, since we are all retards. haha. Saturday we went to COSI with my little brother and that night we went to a movie and out to eat by ourselves. alone time, finally! haha. and sunday, he left. so thats pretty much it. I know it sounds like we didnt do much, but that's just how we are..we dont need to haev any big fancy plans to have fun. It was an awesome weekend just because I got to spend time with him and cuddle with him and stuff. I missed him even before he left. he is coming back for thanksgiving, but thats not soon enough. I am going to try and get my ass up to wisconsin soon so that i can see him before then. In other news, i have no idea where i am going with my life. I am changing schools, changing majors..changing my whole life pretty much. it's kind of overwhelming. I REALLY miss being at school. I just miss everything about it. I miss hanging out with people until 3 am, going to parties, ordering pizza 3 nights a week. *sigh* I got all nostalgic today while watching some movie about being at college, and i really cannot wait until I am back in school. I need to get everything figured out so that I can definately start at the end of January when the second semester starts. I need to figure out what i want to major in. I am thinking something like physical therapy or some kind of athletic trainer or something...i have no idea. This is the first time I have really felt like I have no direction. All through highschool i was like.."i want to be a doctor" thats it. but then once i thought about it and got into it, i realized that i really dont want to do that...but I have NO clue what else i want to do. Oh well, I guess I will get it figured out eventually. I know that I am young and I have plenty of time, and all that bullshit, but I'd like to have some sort of plan and goals and stuff.
ok, so wow..its been a while eh? well ALOT has changed in my life in the past few months since you all have heard from me. I don't even really know where to start. I'll give you the short but sweet version. It all started sometime at the end of June when my best friend Julie was coming home from Wyoming over the summer and bringing some of her friends from college with her. I had talked to her friend Nate, a few times online, but that was it. I had never met him. We had this whole week of fun stuff planned and it was going to be great. The first night, Adriane and I head over to Julie's to meet the guys and go to a movie at the drive in. Pretty much, Nate and I hit it off right away and ended up making out in the back of Adriane's jeep while watching Bruce Almighty a mere 3 hours after we had met. haha. yah, im a slut like that, what can i say. Well really, that was pretty out of character for me, but I don't know, there was just something about it. It was like instant attraction. Well, long story short, we were pretty much inseperable for the rest of the time that they were there, it was like we had known each other forever. Well, he lives in wisconsin, so I was thinking it was just a summer fling, and i would probably never see him again, but once he left, i couldnt get him out of my mind. I talked to him, and he felt the same way, we decided that we wanted to see if we could make something work. I went to visit him over the summer and stayed a week at his house, and after that I knew that I couldnt live my life without him. I decided that I was going to transfer schools. At first, i was going to go to Concordia, a small private school near milwaukee where he goes to school. I tried to get everything figured out, but the financial situation just wasnt working out, so I ended up just staying home, and I am going to be starting school, hopefully at University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee at the end of January for the second semester. SO its been hard, not being able to see each other that often, but I've gone up there to visit 3 times so far, and Nate's coming here next week for 4 days for his fall break, and again at Thanksgiving. And so far, it has been awesome. He is the greatest person I have ever known, I never knew it was possible to feel this way about someone, and have them feel the same way back. I am the happiest I have ever been. :o) So that, in a nutshell, is what's been going on lately. I am no longer a Wright State Raider, and I have been sitting on my ass at home. I can't wait to start school and get my life back together! Oh, and I've decided to change my major as well. I no longer want to do Pre-med. I was just thinking about all the money it's gonna cost me to go through all that schooling and then I won't have time for my family or anything. So I'm looking at maybe physical therapy, or athletic trainer, or something. we'll see... Well, all that being said, for anyone who still reads this after my long absence, I am going to try to update alot more since I have no life and it gives me something to do. I hope everyone is doing well :o)
i just woke up. its 4:30. ahh! haha. oh well. my roomate's still sleeping so atleast im not as bad as she is. well anyways, nothing really has been going on here. yesterday sarah and i went and put the deposit down for our apartment next year, so we finally got that out of the way, and we're all set as far as that goes. it will definately be nice to have our own place and not have to worry about sharing a bathroom, or sharing any kind of room for that matter. ahh! the only thing is that i know its going to be stressful for me having to work my ass off all summer and all school year so that ill be able to pay the rent and shit. hopefully ill make enough over the summer so that i can get a cheap little piece of shit car and still have atleast a little left to keep in the bank. then ill be working while im down here and that should be sufficient enough for me to come up with the money each month. but..i dont want to worry about that now. the time will come. other than that, i am going home tomorrow..and i am..dare i say it...looking forward to it. wow, i never thought i would hear myself say that. but yes, i am ready to go home. i want to see everyone and to just relax. it seems weird because everyone that i talk to is like..i didnt want school to end, i wanted to stay. and im like..i really want it to end. its like..not fun for me anymore. i need a change...maybe its just because of the things that have been going on, and thats what is causing me to want to leave. but i mean, sure im gonna miss everyone..but after you see people every single day for 9 months, you need a break. atleast i do. but anyways..im so hungry..gonna go scrounge up some food.
Tue, May. 27th, 2003, 03:22 pm
fun times
last cigarette: yesterday last kiss: few months ago last good cry: hm..good question..i honestly think it was senior year when i didnt make volleyball. i dont cry much last library book checked out: three books that are possibilities for my critical book review in english last movie seen: The matrix reloaded last book read: hm..well if you count the few chapters of "Beyond Good and Evil" by Nietzsche. last cuss word uttered: take your pick, i use them all. last beverage drank: mountain dew that exploded on me this morning :o/ last food consumed: m&ms this morning in history last crush: andrew... last phone call: my mom called last night last tv show watched: jackass last shoes worn: tennis shoes last cd played: good charlotte, self titled album last item bought: well considering i havent had money in like a month...nothing. but i did buy some food this morning with my meal plan here at school. hah last downloaded: "saturday night in toledo, ohio" by John Denver last annoyance: my pop exploding in history class last disappointment: my grades sucking ass last soda drank: once again, the mountain dew last thing written: something about consumer society last word spoken: "up?" following "what's" last sleep: from about 4 last night until noon today. last im: sarah last weird encounter: hm..i dont really know.. last ice cream eaten: i cant remember the last time i had ice cream. i dont like it last time amused: today in history when my professor was dancing around to "material girl" by madona last time wanting to die: hah..um...every once in a while.. last time in love: never... last time hugged: hm...i think i hugged sarah last weekend while i was wasted. haha last time scolded: julie yelled at me about smoking the other day last chair sat in: this chair last lipstick used: none.. last underwear worn: the blue ones im wearing right now. last bra worn: um..my purple sports bra last shirt worn: black t-shirt with good charlotte on it. last time dancing: hm..at that one party..i dont remember when last poster looked at: the austin powers one right in front of me last show attended: seether last webpage visited: LiveJournal.
Tue, May. 27th, 2003, 03:25 am
so yah..
so i have come to the realization that i think/worry about things waaay too much. like the whole andrew situation..i take things out of context and worry about it way too much. i am leaving in 3 weeks, and then i really wont have to worry about it anymore, so why make these last few weeks more stressful than they have to be. at the same time, it sucks to want someone so much, and to not really know what theyre thinking as they hold you in their arms while you are sleeping. a normal person would think this means something..and im sure it does..but WHAT it means exactly, i dont know. tom says that andrew just cant make up his mind about ashley and what he wants to do with that, and the fact that in 3 weeks i will be 2 and a half hours away..its kind of a scary idea. so i understand that it is a confusing situation for him, but come on, is it that hard to decide what you want and stick with it. if you just want to be friends..then lets just be friends..if you want to try for something more, ok..lets do it..but we cant be going back and forth..i just cant handle it. despite the fact that it feels so good, and so right to be with him...i just wish i could know if it feels the same way to him. BUT like i said, im gonna try and not worry about it anymore..im going to take it as it comes. i am sleeping in my own bed tonight..for the first time in quite a while..it will be lonely..yes...but..ill get over it. i predict that by the end of the week, i will have slept over there again atleast once..but we'll see i could be wrong. what i really need to do, is meet someone else. with only a few weeks of school left, however, that doesnt seem like a promising option. i have recently discovered that brian has a crush on me..which is a complete surprise..and i feel kind of akward about the situation now because i really have no feelings for him whatsoever. he is a nice guy and all, but im not attracted to him, and i really have nothing in common with him. damnit! why cant it ever work out that people that are interested in me, are people that i would actually be interested in as well. and i feel really bad about the whole brian thing because apparently he said something to andrew about not letting something so good go(in reference to me) and like..not passing up the best chance he might get. or something to that affect. and i was just like wow..the fact that he would say that about me..but then again, it just makes me feel kinda weird. but i guess its ok. he doesnt know that i know, and as long as nothing is said..it shouldnt really get weird. so because of both of these situations and the need for a break from everything, i have decided that i am going home this weekend. i just want to get away, and not have to think abotu anything going on here. plus, you know what they say..absence makes the heart grow fonder..so maybe if andrew doesnt see or talk to me for a few days, he can think about what he wants and figure it out. not like he would tell me if he did..but you know..we can hope. how much easier would it be if i could just ask him how he felt and he would actually tell me straight up. but no, already sort of tried it and hes not saying a damn thing. grr..boys.... ;oP but, other than that, nothing is going on. my grades are shitty this quarter, and ive only got myself to blame. i have been majorly slacking off. but i guess thats what happens when you wake up and you have someone holding you tighly and telling you they want you to stay with them. so needless to say, i havent been to class much, and the grades are showing it. so im looking at all B's this quarter..not terrible..but not what i should be getting, and that kind of disappoints me. Next year, i am determined to work my ass off and do my best, because i know that i can really do so much better than this. well anyways, i gotta get to bed. class at 12:30 and i definately have to go. catch you kids later on
well i figure that if julie is gonna update hers, i should do mine. and since i have no life..it sounds like a good plan! ;o) anyways, pretty much nothing has been going on. had a fun weekend last weekend, julie came down and we drank. then the crew went to brittanys and we drank. i bonged a beer for the first time, and it was fun ;oP. but other than that, not much. the year is coming to a close, and i have to say, i am pretty glad. its just getting too stressful being here. i just want to go home and relax. i am hoping to find some sort of full time babysitting job over the summer so i can hopefully be making close to 500 a week and i can save up almost 4000 over the summer, which would be superb. i am sick of having to worry about money all the time, and next year is not going to be any better with the apartment and bills to pay, but i will get it done. i will work as much as i have to in order to have to money. you gotta do what you gotta do. well it looks like it is time for me to go get my laundry. i will talk to you kids later. and by the way..isnt my icon the shit! ;oP
"a lonely september" - the plain white t's Im sittin here all by myself just trying to think of somethin to do Im tryin to think of something, anything, just to keep me from thinking of you But you know its not workin out, cuz youre all that’s on my mind One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind And I didn’t mean for this to go, as far as it did And I didn’t mean to get so close, and share what we did And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did Im sittin here tryin to convince myself that youre not the one for me But the more I think, the less I believe, and the more I want you here with me You know the holidays are coming up, I don’t wanna spend them alone Memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if im on my own And I didn’t mean for this to go, as far as it did And I didn’t mean to get so close, and share what we did And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn’t mean to love me back I know its not the smartest thing to do, we just cant seem to get it right But what I wouldn’t give to have one more chance tonight Sittin here tryin to entertain myself with this old guitar But with all my inspiration gone, its not gettin me very far I look around my room, and everything I see reminds me of you Oh please baby wont you take my hand, weve got nothing left to prove And I didn’t mean for this to go, as far as it did And I didn’t mean to get so close, and share what we did And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did And I didn’t mean to meet you there, we were just kids And I didn’t mean to give you chills, the way that I kiss And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did Don’t say you didn’t love me back, cuz you know you did No, you didn’t mean to love me back, but you did ---------------------------------------- -------------------------- so yah, that pretty much sums up what im feeling right now...especially the chorus part. I don't even know whats going on anymore. I just wish that things could be easy and straight forward..but of course its never like that. I thought things would get easier..but of course not. I think its time that I talk to him and see what is up with him and what he wants to get out of this..but i dont know how....
Fri, Jan. 3rd, 2003, 12:47 am
so yah...
well..I havent written a whole lot since I have been home, and I am sorry..but i just have no motivation to do so. But I do want to fill everyone in on what has been happening lately. I feel really bad that I havent really talked to or hung out with adriane at all over break. I saw her that one day at bath and body works while she was working, but then we only talked for like 5 minutes, and thats it. I mean it doesnt make that much of a difference because I never talked to her while I was at school, but it still sucks to lose touch with people you used to talk to every day. ;o( I will try to talk to her more when this quarter starts, we shall see..we all know I suck at emailing..but I will try. Other than that I have mostly been staying at home and chilling by myself. Julie and I went shopping the day after christmas and I hung out with Katie alot, but I really havent seen or talked to anyone else. The day Katie and I went to Maxwell's we saw two people from high school that we talked to and went out to eat with, so I guess that was cool. It feels so weird to see people that I used to see every day, and to see how much they have changed...or how much they have stayed the same. I wonder if I changed at all..I mean..to the point where people would notice it and talk about it. hmm...It's hard to say I guess. I know that in some aspects I have changed, but not that anyone would notice just talking to me..I dont think. Something to think about I guess. Now...new years..hmm..haha..it was fun. Julie, Katie, and I drove down to wright state to party with my friends there and we also went down to Cincy to see Julie's friend. We left here monday afternoon and got down there about 5, we went to the mall and stuff and finally got into the dorms to stay at like 8:30. Then we basically just chilled and went to bed at 2. On new years eve we drove to cincy and saw julie's friend for a little bit before she had to work, then we went out to eat and then back to WSU. We had to wait forever for andrew to get back from work and let us into the dorm, since they change the locks when we are gone so that only people who pay to stay get to get in. Then we sat around for a while and then went over to their room and did a few shots. I felt bad because julie and katie didnt really want to do shots, and i hope i didnt make them feel like they had to or anything. Then Katie's cousin sarah and her friend got there and we left a few minutes after that to go over to josh's where the kegs and shit were. So pretty much we were all drunk by like 9ish. We played some drinking games over at josh's and basically just hung out over there. They talked me into smoking a cigarette, and I am not sure whether i liked it or not. I was drunk at the time, so I didnt really care too much what I did, but I still feel like such a hypocrite for doing it because I always yell at everyone else..but you gotta do everything atleast once, right? I feel like I am letting certain people down..but I dont know...I am only young once and I know what I am doing...I think.... It was also weird for me to have my "old friends" and my "new friends" all there at the same time. I didnt want to feel like I was spending too much time with either one..but its like..I was different back in high school when these other people knew me, and I dont know how I am supposed to act. It wasnt really a problem or anything, but It was just a little weird to have those two worlds collide...ya know? But it was still fun cuz the people that I always talk about got to meet each other and that was cool. I wanted them to meet andrew, but I think they got a bad impression of him. I get the feeling they think he is like a bad guy because of the whole kelly situation and everything, but really hes not..I dont know...but I think over all, everyone liked each other and we all had fun. When it came time for the countdown we all crammed into josh's house and counted down. Andrew gave me a hug at midnight....how exciting. haha..but it was all good. we left right after that because people were cold, and I know andrew didnt want to, but I gicve him props for just taking us back. I feel bad though cuz he sometimes lets people push him around, and I know he didnt want to go back, but oh well..he passed out like 15 minutes after we got back anyways. hah. so yah..we got back and there were 5 people supposed to be sleeping in my room. I didnt want to cram on the floor with katies cousin and her friend so I went to sleep on the floor in tom and andrews room..(im sure everyone knows where this story is going..) i went over there and tom tried to say he would sleep on the floor and I could have his bed, but he is kinda gross so i was like no ill take the floor. then i was sitting with andrew on his bed just talking and shit, and hes like..you can sleep up here, and im like no thats ok. then he just lifts the covers and is like, come on, get in. so yah, i slept in his bed with him that night. but the thing that kinda got me was when he said "it will be good, I am used to having someone in my bed" referring to kelly. and i was kinda like..wow..how nice of you to say, good to know I am like your replacement sleeping partner..but whatever..he was drunk, and I didnt feel like asking what he meant by that but whatever. he kept telling me how he wants to end it with her, and he needs my help..but i dont know what he wants me to do. This isnt the first time that hes said this, so we'll see what really happens when we all get back to school. but yah, im going back on saturday so that andrew and I can go down to cincy to see matt play in this battle of the bands thing. should be pretty cool. It feels weird to being going back to school, but I am ready to get back into the routine. Its going to be so weird though to see these people again after a month..Ive only really talked to andrew, and kelly a little bit, but i havent even really talked to anyone else, so it will be interesting to see how it goes. but anyways..I'm off to bed..I have to wake up early and call in sick to work. hah. anyways. peace!!
hehe ;o) well folks, it is safe to say that I am terrible at updating this thing. It's just that nothing really interesting happens, and when it does, I dont have much time to sit here and write about it, but tonight I am bored so here I sit. first things first. The concert. it was a decent amount of fun. Andrew and Kelly got here and we went to visit my mom at work because she wanted to meet them, then we picked my sister up at school and then we went to the mall for a little bit before leaving for detroit. we got there a little bit late, like no more than 10 minutes, and we missed The Used, a band that andrew and I both really wanted to see. but at the time we didnt know that we had missed them, we thought that they just didnt show up at all, so we werent too disappointed until after the fact. but the thing is, we were in this huge arena, and where do you think we sat? oh yes...upper deck ONE ROW FROM THE BACK! haha. it was pretty bad, but still..not as bad as the very last row. haha. ;oP the first band that we saw was the vines, they sucked. I never liked them to begin with, but this just made me dislike them even more. The lead singer is a spaz with no real talent, and to make it worse, he smashed not one, but two of his guitars in their like..5 song set. plus a few amps in there as well. sheesh. The second band was trust company. they would have been alright had the sound not been totally fucked up. you couldnt hear the singers voice at all, so all it sounded like was a bunch of guitars and drums. no fun. Then...Zwan. Now if you dont know who Zwan is..it is this new band consisting of 2 members of the sdmashing pumpkins, including that annoying bald guy, and then some other people i dont remember what band they are from. NOt that it matters, they blew chunks. I felt kind of bad because they were booed, but seriuosly...i could not stand it. After sitting through all of that shit, we finally got to see new found glory. They kicked ass. Then good charlotte. They kicked even more ass. I was very impressed. The thing that sucked though was having to sit in those shitty seats while everyone down on the floor was rocking out. Andrew and I were like, we need to be down there damnit!!! haha. but all in all..it was a good show. it was fun to see them again, and after the show we were so hyper that we just acted stupid the whole way home and it was pretty darn funny. Andrew is too funny, gotta love that kid. we just have too much fun together. speaking of him..haha..julie and I are going down to visit wright state for new years, so that should be really fun. I am really looking forward to it. home sweet home. heh ;o) its weird how that place became like home to me so fast. It's like..my real house, isnt really home anymore, its just where im staying until i can go back home to wright state. kinda nice to finally have that quasi-independent feeling. anyways..there was something else i wanted to talk about i think..but i cant remember..oh yes! i got a job finally. at media play. its not that great, but its still money. i have only worked two days so far, and its not that bad. I will only be working there over break, and possibly over the summer, so that will be cool. speaking of work. I have to be there tomorrow morning at 11, and i am dead tired, so I am off to bed. peace!!
well hello friends! I have spent most of the day today cleaning the house in preparation for my friends' visit next week. Andrew and Kelly are coming up to go to a concert in detroit and they are going to be staying over at my house. woohoo! I am pretty excited for them to come, but not as much as i was...oh..about 3 days ago. you see...andrew was supposed to come up early so we could hang out and stuff and we were gonna tell kelly to come later at like 3ish. but then she guilt trips him into taking her, so now they are both coming together. what fun. now it will be the three of us hanging out as usual. grr..i am so sick of this. and the thing that pisses me off the most is the fact that before all this kelly had asked andrew to pick her up, and he said no..so she tells me that she will get him to take her because she can get him to do whatever she wants. i tell him this..cuz i think he should hear what she thinks of him..and he naturally gets a little pissed off. he tells me that he is not taking her no matter what, and what happens..she makes him feel bad, and he says he will take her. what bullshit! ahhh!! she is going to drive an hour to go meet him at school, so they can then drive 3 hours to get up here. when she could have driven the 2 hours from her house to my house...does that make any sense to anyone!? no! im thinking that she is just jealous cuz its obvious that andrew and i have more fun than she does with him and we talk alot more and we have way more in common..shes reaching...but whatever...she cant chane the facts....hes just using her so that he can get some....booya! hah. god i am so mean. dont get me wrong, i like kelly...but sometimes the things she does..just piss me off. but oh well, there is nothing i can do now. just accept whats going on, like i am used to with those two. blah ;oP. well anyways..i am gonna go jump in the shower and get ready to do something today maybe..i dont know. i miss school...is that sad or what...im getting sick of sitting here doing nothing all day. but oh well..it was a much needed break :o) peace outside!
I AM BACK! well i dont know if anyone still reads this, but if you do...fear not..i am still alive. I am home now on christmas break, so I am now back to having no life and doing nothing all day. woohoo! haha. school has been so much fun. I have some of the most awesome friends and I am having alot of fun. There is obviously way too much to tell about..but if you are one of my close friends, then you already know whats been going on anyways. If you are feeling left out because you dont know, feel free to ask me and i will be sure to tell you about all of my adventures ;o) anyways..i am home now, and it is so weird. I miss everyone already and I cant wait till i get to see them. some people are hopeully coming up to toledo for a concert in about a week, but we shall see if it actually works out. i am really hoping because i am really looking forward to it. well i am about to go play pinochle with julie...haha..im a nerd i know..so i am out. i will write more later, no worries
haha. well i know its been a while. i am just busy all the time. well not really busy, but theres always someone to talk to or something, you know. so yah, i have been having fun. i was sick the past two days though, so that really blew. i missed two days of classes so that sucked totally, but everyone here was really nice and took care of me :o) so that was nice. hmm....nothing else has really been going on. tonight we went out to dinner and to see sweet home alabama. then tom and andrew came home completely wasted so i talked to them for a while and now here i am. chillin. my room mate went home for the night, so im all by my lonesome. hm...oh well. it will be nice for a change to not have to worry about bothering her. anyways, i think im gonna go to bed, its getting pretty late and im tired. peace!
well apparently not!!!! AHHH! i do believe i am the stu[idest person alive. i could have sworn my class was at 8:30, but i just looked at my schedule, nope it was at 8. of course im not gonna go late and look like a stupid loser, so i asked tiffany, my sophomore suite mate, and she said the first day they dont do anything so it shouldnt matter so i dont have to worry. but god, i feel like such a retard! haha, oh well. gives me more time before my next class i guess. Well, other than missing my first college class ever, everything is going great. I'm having lots of fun. My room mate and i never hang out, or see each other really, but I have tons of friends. Im getting pretty cool with my two suite mates and theyve introduced me to all their friends so thats been fun. Last night we went over to some girls apartment to watch real world, and it was a good time. Andrew and Tom are having a "party" in their room on friday so that will be cool. Their room is like the hang out spot, we always have like 15 people just chillin in there. Two nights ago we were all watching the "soft porn" on HBO. haha. good times. Andrew's also trying to get some tickets to this new found glory show thats coming up, and were trying to get a big group to go, so that should be fun. anyways, i have class in a half hour, I better go so i dont forget!! ;oP peace!
Mon, Sep. 16th, 2002, 01:41 pm
hidey ho!!
well well, here I am, at school! woohoo. it's going well so far. my room mate is a little wierd, but its ok. we get along fine and stuff so its all good. Tonight theres this little dance type thign with free pizza so you know ill be there for sure! our room is so huge too. anyone who wants to come visit. hell yah! haha. and my # is (937)775-1998. so yah, call me! haha. but classes start on wednesday. ahhh! shoot me now. but it shouldnt be too bad. oh on tuesday night we're getting bw3's and having a band play in the parkinglot of our dorm, so that should be fun. theres a really cute guy on my floor named andy, but i call him him guitar guy, cuz we had to do this little ice breaker activity where we go and grab one thing from our room that we would take if there were a fire, so he brought his guitar. so yah, hot guitar guy. haha. and his room mate, tom, is really nice. he came and helped me with my computer and stuff. so thats cool, hes a nice guy. but yah my room mate is wierd, and her friend dave, is like the biggest nerd i know. he builds these little space ship things for fun, hmm..ok...haha. well anyways, i gotta get going. heather (my room mate) 's friends are coming later and i guess we're going to hang out with them or something. should be a great time. haha. well anyways. im out!
*when i was a baby i had multiple surgeries on my eyes for plugged tearducts *i broke my wrist when I was in 5th grade *i have two "birthmarks". One on my forehead called an angel kiss, thats supposed to have been gone by the time I was 3, but yah, its not. You can only really see it when im sick or really cold. The other one is on the back of my neck and called a stork bite. how cute! *i went to an all girls catholic high school *i have never smoked a cigarette, ever *i hate water, ice cream, and popcorn *the only veggies I will eat are lettuce, cold carrots, and corn *i dont like wearing shoes *my first concert was the beach boys when I was about 8 *when i got my wisdom teeth pulled, I only had three, how wierd *i collect stickers, and t-shirts *i used to want to be dolly parton(hahaha!) *i have never been in love *i hate feet *i dont like fish, they scare me *i once caught a fish at my grandpa's cottage when I was 6 that was about 2 feet long, using one of those kiddie fishing poles that was about 2 feet long! *i took birth control pills for a while a few years back because i was "irregular" . hah *i am terribly nice, and have a problem being mean to people *sophomore year, my two "best friends" dumped me bacause I didnt like nsync enough ;oP *i like punk/alternative music, not nsync.. *i can get ready (including a shower) in 20 minutes *i like country music sometime *i have never had a *real* boyfriend *i have never been drunk *i am not a loser, haha *i generally don't like to be touched when i am in an aggravated state * i dont like crying in front of other people *inspite of everything i say, i love my dad, and it hurts when my mom complains to me about him *i like football *i am almost 18, and i dont have my drivers license yet, but my parents leave me the car all the time to do what i please with *back in the day, i stole a hair clip from claires *i love smoothies * i want a hug *i enjoy watching trading spaces *i could eat pizza everyday *i love spaghettios * i never officially quit my job at target, i just stopped showing up *i love music *i dont like waking up before 11 am * in 4th grade, i beat erin monarch, and won the spelling bee, it was the happiest day of my life! *i hate wearing nail polish * i am close to being 6 feet tall! ahh! * i over analyze everything *i hate when things change *i am scared about leaving for school in 3 days * i actually like math *i never went to a homecoming dance or a prom *when i was little my best friend was josh rice, who lived across the street. We became friends when I walked over to him and asked if he wanted to swim in my pool, I was probably about 3 *josh and i kissed on my swingset when I was 8 *i hate eggs, all kinds *i used to want to be a gymnast, but alas, i was always too tall * in grade school i had a part in the choir play/musical thing. I didnt have to sing, but I talked while music was playing. I had to wear a trench coat. I messed up my lines half way through and said "no! wait!" and then started over! haha *i have been in one car accident my entire life, and it wasnt even bad *in 2nd grade I flew home from florida by myself *i can do a backflip off the side of a pool
I am so incredibly lonely, it's not even funny. I feel like everyone I know has gotten these new lives and they don't include me, like everyone has just forgotten about me. Either that, or they just don't care anymore. *sigh* who knows. No one returns my emails or phone calls, I guess that means they don't want to talk to me right? I mean, if someone wanted to keep in touch with you and keep you as part of their life, they would make atleast a small effort to do that, right? or am i totally off base here. I am just sick of always having to initiate things. I sit here and I email people, and I call them, and when they never bother to do the same to me, I just email them or call them again. I guess I should take the hint that they dont care about what's going on in my life then eh? blah..I need to get outta here, I'm gettting too depressed. I know that everyone's busy, but its kind of dishertning to send out like 10 emails and get on two days later, to see that no one has replied...oh well..im over it...i guess..life goes on. I guess it was kind of naive to think that we would all go our seperate directions and things would sill remain the same. but, hey, what can ya do? but yah, its all good. anyways, I'm off to bed. peace!
if you are interested in seeing something funny (well i thought so anyways) go here: http://vagrantsavior.com/ninjaI found it quite amusing, but then again, its 1 am and it's about 90 degrees so I might be slightly delerious. ;oP hmm..so today i watched like 4 football games. south carolina lost!! grrr. thats my team yo! ;oP but its all good, cuz OSU won. they kick some serious ass this year. You know what I realized not too long ago, my school (wright state) doesnt even have a football team. How disappointing is that?! well I will just have to go to some ohio state games or cincy or something, for sure! well anyways, im outta here, its too darn hot!
Sat, Sep. 7th, 2002, 05:18 pm
uh oh!
i think i may have gotten myself into a little trouble. crap! foiled again! ;o| |
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